I was always different. It was never diagnosed but I have Dyslexia. If you don't know what this is, it basically makes it harder for me to read and write. Yeah it sucks...Big Time! It makes school three times harder and it makes it tough for me to do things like research projects and things like that. I don't usually open up about it unless I really am comfortable with you. I mean come on, how awkward would it be if someone randomly walks up to you and is all like "hey you don't know me but I"m dyslexic kay bye!" :) anyway. My first day of (I'm going to make up a name for my school) Great Lake Middle School. I knew a few people. My friend (all these names are fake as well) Melonie and I met up at the lunch tables. She told me about a girl who had a glass eye but was way cool! Her name was Karissa. (Karissa comes into play waaaay later as my best friend) I met her and honestly thought she was kind of weird because of her eye. Then again who am I to judge. I am strange too. I look at my schedule. Seems simple enough. You have 5 minutes to get from class to class. As well as a 15 minute break and 30 minute lunch. Not bad. 1st period was good as well as 2,3,4. 5th period is a whole story all to itself...in a good way! 5th period was Drama I with Mr.R. (we will call him that for now) Mr.R is one of the funniest teachers EVER! I should know I take his class now as I am in Drama II at Melinda High School (again not my real High School) I digress. It was the only thing in my awful middle school experience that kept me going. 6th grade wasn't too bad. It wasn't great either. 7th grade was one of the best and worst years of my life. I met my best friends Callie, Annie, and Ann Lynn. I also got to know Karissa a little better. Callie I had already known a little bit. She introduced me to Annie and then Ann Lynn. 7th grade was my 'Awkward year' now granted, I'm most likely the most awkward person you will ever meet...EVER! Anyways...I was bullied due to my dyslexia. Stupid I know. I also found out I have A.D,H.D This stands for Attention Defecate Hyper Disorder. It means I'm crazy 24/7. Ha Ha just kidding. But it does mean I am a little nutty. I took pills for a little while and they helped...but I was afraid I would be made fun of so I stopped taking them. By now I had some of the greatest friends in the world. Melonie, Callie, Annie, Karissa, and Ann Lynn. Well I thought Melonie was the greatest friend in the world. She began to spread rumors about me and my A.D.H.D. it ruined me. Then it got worse. One of my best friends began to bully me. I was told I didn't look good in skinny Jeans, I wasn't pretty. I felt pretty bad about myself. Instead of seeing the good thing about myself I saw bad things. Let's fast forward to 8th grade. here is where it gets BAD! November 8th 2010 was possibly the worst day of my life. I found out a lady who I had known all the years I lived in California had passed away due to cancer. I tuned out for about 4 months. Nothing mattered to me. there was a point where I considered suicide. I isolated myself. I barely hung out with friends. I kept to my room only coming down for food. Then I found out one of my friends was moving... I tuned out again for about 2 weeks. My mom took me to a therapist... he didn't help...at all. I ended up taking medicine to help with my depression. I slowly began coming out of my fog. I finally decided i ween off of the meds. Now I say be positive! There is way more to this story so I will shortly sum it up. Melonie and I rarely speak to each other. Karissa is my best friend as well as Callie, Annie, and Ann Lynn. If you are going through a hard time just know it gets better. I was a depressing person for a total of 2 years 6 months and X amount of days. It will get better.
-Me <3 :)
